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So as the holidays loom closer and closer every day I find myself a bit overwhelmed by a lot of things. Money is so tight these days and I worry about being able to provide a good Christmas for everyone. Making ends meet is getting harder and harder with each passing paycheck and each new bill. I don't really know how to make the situation any better. And as this year is coming to an end it places a bigger emphasis on the fact that July is going to be here before we know it. Yet we have no money to pay for this wedding or our honeymoon. I know we will make it happen somehow and that it will be wonderful, but the whole money situation just stinks. Not to mention all of this planning is nerve wracking and it doesn't help that everyone wants to put in their two cents on every aspect of things.
Shew, on to other topics I'm so tired of that. I am wanting a puppy so badly I can't even explain it. Our landlord however wants a $600 non-refundable deposit for a pet. Therefore my yearning for a puppy will not be fulfilled. I so desperately need something to keep me company while Adam is traveling so much for work. I am not looking forward to him being gone for 6 weeks straight in the new year. I don't take well to being alone. So basically, all I want for Christmas is a puppy that I can't have.
I'm truly grateful that my dad got out of the hospital today after being there a week now. It is good to know they got the situation under control finally. Hopefully it will stay under control and not happen again. In all honesty I do miss being there a little bit right now. It is a scary thing to have him in the hospital and I can't be there for support. I can't even imagine losing my dad even though I know it is inevitable in the future.
I must end this now on the note that I am feeling pretty nasty. Sickness goes around work like no one's business. I need to load up on the vitamin C and get some rest before I get any sicker than I am.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Monday, June 9, 2008
A Fresh Start
It is has been an incredibly long time since I have done any kind of blogging. I'm not so much doing this for the enjoyment, more so for the convience of being able to look back at my life at a later point in time and remember all the things that one may forget whilst progressing into old age. I don't feel old by far, but I'm beginning to wonder whatever happened to the years when i could just be a kid and didn't have to worry about all of the bills that have to be paid and debt to be paid off. In some respects being an adult truly sucks.
I started today at UMC, working with a fresh set of children who seem to be amazingly more well behaved than the kids at HTCCC could even dream of being. I was amazed to see how much more intelligent these kids were. The set up of the school really seems to be the major difference and it has had a wonderful impact on the children. Being unsure of how long I will actually be at this job, it makes me kind of sad that I will not be able to see these children grow up into young adults. However, I am grateful that I will get to impact their lives, even if for just a short period of time.
I think for the first time in my life I am actually looking forward to summer being over, yet it hasn't officially even began yet. The fall will bring new beginnings and fresh perspectives to this life that is constantly changing. There is something that I am really looking forward to in the fall and I just pray that it does not let me down.
We did end up getting our football tickets, which means not only a vast longing for the end of August so that the season will start and I can go to my first official game in the Swamp, but also the further in debt we have put ourselves for the sake of the Florida Gators. It feels as though August 30th will never get here, nor will my birthday. My only hope is that CBH doesn't come back and say that Adam cannot have those days around my birthday off and that he has to go to Palm Beach that week. That would be a crushing blow to the first birthday of mine that we actually get to spend together. I guess only time will tell.
In ending, I feel truly blessed to be in the situation that I am in right now. The children reaffirmed to me today that I am at the right place at this point in my life. The hugs and kisses and just overall love that they showed me today just proves how privileged I am to be able to care and teach them. These are the simple joys and pleasures in life which no one should ever ignore.
I leave you with this: "It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat." --Teddy Roosevelt--
Until next time,
Kenna
I started today at UMC, working with a fresh set of children who seem to be amazingly more well behaved than the kids at HTCCC could even dream of being. I was amazed to see how much more intelligent these kids were. The set up of the school really seems to be the major difference and it has had a wonderful impact on the children. Being unsure of how long I will actually be at this job, it makes me kind of sad that I will not be able to see these children grow up into young adults. However, I am grateful that I will get to impact their lives, even if for just a short period of time.
I think for the first time in my life I am actually looking forward to summer being over, yet it hasn't officially even began yet. The fall will bring new beginnings and fresh perspectives to this life that is constantly changing. There is something that I am really looking forward to in the fall and I just pray that it does not let me down.
We did end up getting our football tickets, which means not only a vast longing for the end of August so that the season will start and I can go to my first official game in the Swamp, but also the further in debt we have put ourselves for the sake of the Florida Gators. It feels as though August 30th will never get here, nor will my birthday. My only hope is that CBH doesn't come back and say that Adam cannot have those days around my birthday off and that he has to go to Palm Beach that week. That would be a crushing blow to the first birthday of mine that we actually get to spend together. I guess only time will tell.
In ending, I feel truly blessed to be in the situation that I am in right now. The children reaffirmed to me today that I am at the right place at this point in my life. The hugs and kisses and just overall love that they showed me today just proves how privileged I am to be able to care and teach them. These are the simple joys and pleasures in life which no one should ever ignore.
I leave you with this: "It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat." --Teddy Roosevelt--
Until next time,
Kenna
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